It was only 2 hours away from new years. I was left to myself, whether I wanted it that way or not. After almost a day of retreating in my shell of feeling deprived (of I dont know what), I slapped my attitude and decided to just speak to him. I asked Abba..."Do you know how much I love you....?...."
I was quite surprised at the next thought that dropped in me. I had always seen these images of Jesus Christ that have been painted and sketched and framed at homes and shops. I wondered if I had subconsciously perceived that as HIS face and HIS image.
"What if he looked totally different? What if he looked like....um....dark,short and weird?....what if he looked like...INDRANS..?!..". I laughed a bit and then was quite shocked myself....I couldnt digest that he would look like any different from the way I had imagined. And...did that mean I was subconsciously never loving him only because of what he's done for me and his love for me?...."Did that mean...I did not love you the way I thought I did, Pa?"
I knew the answer for the question I had asked him in the beginning...Yes, he did know how much I love him. It just wasn't enough. I felt something new that night...
New love...deeper love.
I just wished...that he would come down and give me the tightest embrace....
I was quite surprised at the next thought that dropped in me. I had always seen these images of Jesus Christ that have been painted and sketched and framed at homes and shops. I wondered if I had subconsciously perceived that as HIS face and HIS image.
"What if he looked totally different? What if he looked like....um....dark,short and weird?....what if he looked like...INDRANS..?!..". I laughed a bit and then was quite shocked myself....I couldnt digest that he would look like any different from the way I had imagined. And...did that mean I was subconsciously never loving him only because of what he's done for me and his love for me?...."Did that mean...I did not love you the way I thought I did, Pa?"
I knew the answer for the question I had asked him in the beginning...Yes, he did know how much I love him. It just wasn't enough. I felt something new that night...
New love...deeper love.
I just wished...that he would come down and give me the tightest embrace....
3 comments:
He embraces us all the time... But He makes sure that we dont feel it prominently... What if we get too pampered and over dependent? We might just about leave everything to him... Our life, career, relationships, everything. God wants us to do our part, all the while keeping Him in the loop.
He is embrasing you. Just step up and do your part! Love U!
he already gave the biggest embrace on the cross
True!.. wow.. :)
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